One way

That way,
This way,
One way,
No way,
Everyway,
Astray,
Today,
One day,
No win no loose,
Overtime,
In line,
For mine,
Fine,
Yours then,
When,
Fenn,
And again,
Fennigan,
One way,
One day,
No more,
The way,
One day……………….

FTBAS 12.30.11

Gift

What’s a wish with out dream?
When’s the wash come clean?
Where’s the fish in the stream?
Who’s the ish your scene?
Under the weight of time,
Under the straight of line,
Under the rake of sublime,
Under the ice of rime,
I walk,
I wish,
I dream,
I fish,
In line,
By,
Line,
I rhyme to breathe,
In service I bleed,
In you I am freed,
To be me…………………………..

FTBAS 12.29.11

Demo

While I am at it,
As a matter of fact it,
Coming from my blast pit,
Talkin like I’m spastic,
You think I cant out last it,
Well I tell you I am fantastic,
When the spell I cast is,
Not only to stop, but to dance this,
See you can’t get me,
Cause I wont run,
You can’t stop me from havin my fun,
Cause from my demographic,
We all tap it,
They wrap it in plastic sic,
Then paper mask it,
Delivered in a basket ,
Then we just forget………………it

FTBAS 12.27.11

Blank

Tossed into virtue,
Fine aim voodoo,
Delicacy flies,
Done bye cries,
Rented the help,
As death itself,
Named one and three,
Done by piking,
Found fighting,
The sail of verse,
Blank of course,
To the third degree,
If by only I and me…………………

FTBAS 12.26.11

Sail

I’m talking like I know,
Open like a shadow,
Closed blind,
Defined,
By rattles of love,
Battles from above,
The depth in my part,
Circle of start,
Sailing through zone,
Sitting like a throne,
Knowing all I’ve known
Where I roam,
It a defiant place to be,
Wrapped in majesty,
Longing dissolves patience,
Laying awake since,
Thinking of the tone,
That will bring me home,
Sail…………………….

Fennigan T BA Spencer
12.22.11

Dark Cloud

Born under a dark cloud,
Raised on barbed wire,
Always shoutin out loud,
At home in this mire.

Keep on thinking,
See some light,
A rain walking,
In black cold night.

Dark cloud rover,
Dark cloud cover,
Dark cloud smother,
Dark cloud over.

Gone away into there,
Gone away to now,
Go away I swear,
Gone away to how.

Who would want me?
Who could try?
All to fool me?
Without knowing why?

Stray over mercy,
Roll under the line,
Razor walk crazy,
Borderline………………………..

FTBAS 12.20.11

Pearl

As muscle in the known,
Experience the sands of time,
Broken heart broken home,
Love erase breath unkind…

Swirl in cosmic turnover,
Slay dragons on fire,
Write script with a lover,
Send it on the wire.

Nothing is different,
Without some the same,
Balance what went,
Hold when came.

Lined up all defections.
Instate grind out peel,
Slave over imperfections,
Perfect deal in real feel,

Mirror looking rich,
Glance dancing twirl,
Tis the daily polish,
Of becoming a pearl!

FTBAS 12.19.11

Joy

Wrapped around a moment of time,
Innocence of thought today,
Sand dripping through the sublime,
Sliced open on a sun ray.

Peace developed in my state of mind,
Wanting released and sewn astray,
Substance amounted to light of rhyme,
It would take pen and paper away.

To a haunting disbelief,
Reckoned of past,
When future belief,
Has risen at last.

To the tone of something old,
To the vibe of different and new,
In the grasp of ones soul,
They know what to do.

Choice isn’t hard,
Bad ones are,
That how we learn,
To follow the joyful satyr,

Of peace and positive,
Of love one and all,
It how we can make it together,
In this human race after all………………


FTBAS 12.18.11

Rough Hide

All along
Everybody knows
So wrong
Nobody shows
Bent hearts
Shaky starts
Token jesters
Dead ends
Even listening
Or at least
One of these
Till you stop talking
Open up
Never be
Shown up
In sanity
Unwritten rules provide
Each their rough hide………….

FTBAS 12.15.11

Crusade

Climbing wall
Night fall
It is real
Achieving feel
On up
Good luck
Back down
Never round
To find
My mind
Along the path
Under wrap
At last
Storm past
Far gone
All known
Wondering
How long
To crusade
This way………….


FTBAS 12.14.11

Duty

Walk in the act adventures,
Calling all moons and star mist,
Waking all you ruinous creatures,
Making up the who’s going to pay list.

Drip out their goodbyes,
Bleed all of their gold,
Dry their tearless eyes,
Revenge their stupid soul.

Open scab pulled back yuck,
Calling out from the dark of duty,
Sibilant screaming " What the Fuck!"
A planned moment a colloquy.

Round the curb of the instance,
Heal the wound of repentance,
Light the halls of significance,
As I write out duty in reverence…………

FTBAS 12.12.11

Scavenge

Ravage a piece of undefined,
Conscious wraps in formality,
Spread sea the great dived,
Storms whipped in deniability,

Senses hold strong desire,
Able arms preacher for these,
Minds eloping for the pyre,
Burning secrets of unease,

Longings of perseverance,
Enraging demon tomb,
Ensemble of appearance,
Nothing spent so soon,

Scavenge points hold nimbly,
Long lines spoken ably,
Of what’s real and not free,
That listen inside me............

FTBAS 12.9.11

Cautious tales and wise man lies

Slick little tales,
Sweet faint smells,
Ounces of gravity,
Madness in vanity,
The begging of deity,
Designed destiny,
Became fates realty,
Among the start of over,
Began the descent of discover,
Left over from nightmare brevity,
Within the walls of sanity,
Life around the sound of me…………


FTBAS 12.5.11

Home of the brave............

Death of democracy,
Born to follow,
Roots in hypocrisy,
Deaf and shallow,
Spirits castrated,
Hope dashed,
Lone line waited,
Holiday bashed,
Mad season reign,
Glances sideway,
Pocket exchange,
Trust in one way,
Half off,
First come,
You scoff,
Burn lonesome,
Gnawing spirits,
Of unwanted dreams!

FTBAS 12.5.11

New

Shiny as gold,
Broken mold,
Bright bling,
Freedom ring,
Diamond face,
Poker draw,
First time I saw
The naked blind,
The running behind,
The question I lie,
Piece of pie,
Pumpkin I say,
Love is a confession,
With the depth of perception,
And it took all day,
The first time I saw God………….

FTBAS 11.24.11

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYBODY !!!!!!!!!!!

Afterthought

It’s the beginning of a mend,
The stopped moment of time,
Click on the tick tock sin,
Rope kneaded by a climb.

Taste of bitter spit line,
Rolling over night train,
Song sung low in time,
First class ride airplane.

To a tropical post outcome,
Disposable sourced island,
Wispy haze blind run,
Key in hand.

Drawn in afterthought sand,
Chalk of the sidewalk fun,
Path gathers in hand,
Downhill upon the sun.

Meandered in season,
Of lasting laughter,
Echo sound of reason,
In the thought after………………….

FTBAS 11.24.11

Seek!

Flowing down a hill of insanity,
Rooted in the gut of humanity,
I watch the sun rise higher,
Under the quicker ticket mire,

We ever fix that a moment,
A gloss over without imperfect,
Shade out lone circumvent,
Out the other with neglect.

To see the wonder of individual,
Complete circle of residual,
Cost paid out by capital,
Faith keeps in the chapel.

Armies on each side,
Not wondering why,
Breed for War,
Needing more,

As each sleeps in peace,
Not sensing the disease,
Or what is about to be,
The result of their apathy…………………

FTCAS 11.22.11

Just Do.

Not to go,
Not to show,
Not to know,
Not two no,
Not for yes,
Not for guess,
Not for bless,
Not forgiveness,
Not when is,
Not when gives,
Not when lives,
Not in business,
Not so loud,
Not so proud,
Not so vowed,
Not to hold,
Not a saint,
Not a ain't,
Not a complaint,
Not full tank,
Not some where,
Not right here,
Not over there,
Not come here,
Just do that’s all…………….

FTBAS 11.17.11

Overcome!

When all is overcome,
When all has come undone,
When all seems in ruin,
When all is shown,

The moon full circle,
The sky over purple,
The land deserted,
The love wave a ripple,

Into mine,
Into alone,
Into night,
Into all gone.

I bring forth,
I stand toward,
I give Lord,
I am loved.

You have this,
You know bliss,
You amongst missed,
You forever blessed.

We are listening,
We hold hands happily,
We look to thee,
We are gathering.

The peace is near,
The time is high,
The place of no fear,
One love world outcome…………

FTBAS 11.11.11

Revolution!

Take up the carpet,
Shake down the walls,
Rip off the pocket,
Blow up the malls,
WAKE UP!
Or self destruct,
No beginning to this end,
As you take over,
Done before,
Done again,
Start up,
Rake up,
I’m luck,
Not a slacker,
Not a hacker,
Just a bastard,
With some crazy ideas,
Revolution,
Revolution not a phase,
Revolution not a craze,
Revolution no delays
Revolution is what I says,

FTBAS 11.10.11


HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY JAZ!!!!!!!!!!

Your Father Loves You!

Vie

Vie went digging,
Vie was begging,
Vie found rags to riches,
Vie fought the glitches,
Vie seen the saints,
Vie done the do,
Vie do the cant’s,
Vie fucked it all,
Vie been fucked too,
Vie went over the edge,
Vie continued,
Vie stopped,
Vie stalled,
Vie amazed,
Vie enthralled,
Vie wondered,
Vie saved,
Vie laid,
Vie graced,
Vie went,
Vie stayed,
Vie got over,
Vie done,
Vie threw it all,
I saw the son……………

FTBAS 11.7.11

Empire

I want to build an Empire of love,
I want you to join along,
I want a place of no fear and pain,
I want us all to get along,
I want you to come out of the rain,
I want you to sing your song,
I want you to feel no pain,
I want you to feel the sun,
I want you to know me.
I want you to walk then run,
I want all to be free,
I want us all to know peace,
I want us to look up high,
I want us to reach,
I want us to know why,
I want to hold you,
I want you to hold me,
I want no one to be blue,
I want no one to be lonely,
I want all this to come true,
I want all of this if only,
I want all of this if it's real,
I want us to all feel,
I want us all to belong……………………………..

FTBAS 11.7.11

Contenplating

The three ring,
The side show,
The contemplating,
The one to know,
The hungry fed,
The abused safe,
The world bled,
The fake of hate,
The loves on,
The gift offering,
The rights on,
The no costing,
The shared place,
The open shore,
The honest face,
The last no more,
The equal of all,
The comma of many,
The even stall,
The beginning of plenty,
The see utopia,
The crate Eden,
The hope ya,
Thee is what I am sayin……………….

FTBAS 11.2.11

Spellbound

Round and round,
In and out,
Darkness comes down,
Without a doubt,
I can’t do nothing right,
Try and try,
To move the light,
By and By,
Shadows crawl,
Creepin corners,
When I saw,
The warders,
Clanging my cell again,
Reaching for the soul,
Of Fennigan,
Tearing out the turmoil,
Blood to boil,
Death laughs,
I grasp,
Intention well done,
They had their fun,
Street claw,
Pole set,
Blind man regret,
Never forget,
Lest regret,
The bet,
I set,
Then met,
The house of spellbound…………..

FTBAS 11.1.11

Aspire

Aspire,
to
Doubt,
to
Dreams,
to
Screams,
to
Leaves,
to
Falling,
to
Around,
to
My clown,
to
My town,
to
My frown,
to
Talked with death,
to
Why she said,
to
You’re gone now,
to
Doesn’t matter,
to
Life’s breath,
to
Taken away,
to
Nightmares tonight,
to
Far away,
to
Portrait of sanity,
to
Brittle and old,
to
My I has to go,
to
One way or the other,
to
Blood thicker than water,
to
Higher liar grounded me,
to
Crush her wings of destiny…………..

FTBAS 11.1.11

Oh the inside

Oh so lonely,
The path well lit,
Oh if only,
All is legit,
Sadness evolved,
Everyone revolved,
To a morning,
The sun doesn’t break,
Unheard warning,
What we take,
For granted under all,
What we make,
Unimportant and small,
Those unfortunate,
Small and meek,
The bolt with out a nut,
A floor with a squeak,
A tatter here,
A splatter there,
Some kind of fear,
Don’t know where,
To begin,
To end,
To when,
Till then………………………………

FTBAS 10.31.11

Unfettered

Intermediate,
Vexed on deviant,
Braced on resonant,
Oh how so delicate,
My unfettered logic,
Of imagination development,
Is that what I meant?
Sorry I must have been absent,
What was I saying?
Write I will tonight,
Weather in blight,
Fight the fight,
To say fuck the light,
Welcome to the dark,
It’s not smart,
It just a lot,
Of what not,
Then some again,
In the rambling halls,
Of Fennigan…………………..

FTBAS 11.28.11

IT

Wiggle it,
Snuggle it,
Bite it,
Fight it,
Sight it,
Right it,
Light it,
Fuck it,
Tonight it,
Did it,
Rolled it,
Split it,
Forgot it,
Missed it,
Bless it,
Dissed it,
Tricked it,
Licked it,
Wound it,
Feel it,
Be it,
Was it,
Hacked it,
Laughed it,
Lacked it,
Draft it,
Drew it,
Coined it,
Cloned it,
Tapped it,
Felt it,
Quit it,
Left it,
Found it,
Lost it,
Without it,
It is pay to play..............

FTBAS 10.25.11

Fearless

To digest,
This mess,
I guess,
Some test,
Could rest,
In peace,
A piece,
Of me,
You see,
Devotion,
Or emotion,
Sate of mind,
Flash in time,
Missing of mine,
What a find,
What a time,
To be blind,
Hide my face,
Laughing disgrace,
Misplaced,
Laced,
Wasted,
Nothing,
Tasted,
Everything,
Pasted,
Anything,
Fearless to me……………

Mind to

Clutched teeth,
Grinding neat,
Your bend,
My blend,
Scoured earth,
Gone bizerk,
Whats worth?
Having you on me,
Not my blood,
Just as good,
You bothered,
You scared,
You dared,
I’m here,
Coming on you,
Dialing tone,
Deadbeat bad,
Thief,
Brief,
My relief,
If you’re blind,
I will find you,
Cross that line,
I have a mind to……………..

FTBAS 10.21.11

My sunrise

When the sun rose,
Amongst a striking pose,
Pleased emotion easy bet,
Mindless devotion of no regret,
Jumping walls on meat grind,
Desperate and blind,
Tripping over topography,
Justice and insanity,
Devoted and insecure,
Open demur,
Politics and race,
Of short chase,
In problem sore,
Were bleeding more,
Than put in,
On fat of the land,
Who’s the stranger?
Who’s in danger?
With the face,
With your space.
Idol of money?
Milk and honey,
Sin of greed?
Till I bleed,
Green ink,
Coats of Mink,
And pedigree’s,
To list on a wall of shame,
When the sun rose it called my name……….

Fennigan t. Spencer 10.18.11

Poets Dream

I dream a poem for the universe,
A little ditty maybe one verse,
Something I could bleed from within,
Words to capture and erase all sin,
Rapture and devour the pace,
Of settled liars in their place,
Deviate from this balance,
Just one glance,
Romance,
Beauty,
Love,
Peace,
None of these
All of these
No disease,
No repeats,
The first of the best,
No better than of last,
Future test the past,
Hunger, pain, misery, alone,
All gone,
One pen,
One name,
One day,
No insane,
No game,
Just a day of dreaming,
A night of sleeping,
A single poet left weeping,
In the name of a dream……………………..

FTBAS 10.18.11

The Big Dog Roll

The street in dark,
The alley quiet,
Puppies bark,
Big Dogs bite.

Big Dogs walk a boogie,
Together they shuffle,
Ain't no would they?
Finish a scuffle.

Its not a will she.
Scratch the belly right,
And he knows she,
Will have his back tonight.

Cause he chooses well,
To mount on her only,
Walks pass the funky smell,
The other bitch’s so lonely.

His Big, Momma Dog,
Don’t get no street bites,
Her Big Dog,
Is her private delight.

Together they rule,
On equal occasion,
Their best tool,
Is their liaison.


Miles under their feet,
Partners of the street,
As jealousy creeps,
From the incompletes.

They won’t let it bother,
Let all that pole pissing slide,
Cause next to each other,
Could be a mile wide…………..

Fennigan TBA Spencer 10.15.11

Shimmy

Shimmy Shimmy
Co co pop
Done Good
Lolly Pop
Indoctrination
Infiltration
Destination
Education
Abbreviation
Of the situation
Skim Coat alleviation
Frustration
Sensation
Completion
Dedication
Patience
Pretense
Suspense
Defense
Relent
Prevent
Bleeding
Of the deviant………….

FTBAS 10.13.11

Have you?

Watched a stream?
See a fall?
Yelled a scream?
Held it all?

Traveled in the dark?
Heard something that’s not?
Thought you were so smart?
Done it allot?

Waved a mountain?
Dried a tear?
Found the fountain?
Seen the seer?

Spread your wings?
Flown about?
Jumped free of things?
Just gone without?

Caged your self in?
Let your self go?
Found a friend?
Let them know?


Caught a star?
Breathed fresh air?
Wondered afar?
Been there?

Found your find
Opened your soul?
Opened your mind?
Let it all go?

With out stumble?
Not trip at all?
Been humble?
Had it all?



FTBAS 10.10.11

Arrived

October moon shine,
Crisp treat thin air,
Leaves of falling time,
No fake or false repair,
No lone lover game,
In two player shared fame
No pity, no doubt, no shame,
Texture color fire night,
Costumes revelry celebration galore,
Smile of dimple green eye sight,
All of some less of more,
Quick run hill of the dark,
Day of light calls it home,
Somewhere for your soul to park,
Not that you gotta have one,
Cause two made better,
Cause two made strong,
Cause two played the fool,
For so long,
That same two now rule,
Side by side,
The butterfly Queen and her King,
Have finally have arrived………

Fennigan T. 10.9.11

Butterfly serenity…………

When,
A colorful butterfly,
Lit in my soul,
My past went bye,
My compass rolled,
Came to wish,
True state of found,
A peaceful bliss,
On solid ground,
Temperature so right,
Warmed my heart,
Jolted me tight,
Made me start,
Held my might
Straight and tall,
In colors a blend,
Colors of fall,
From butterfly,
From Fennigan,
Within the why,
To back again,
Both are me,
The top of my world,
Both I see,
In cosmic swirl,
Out in front of me,
When I view into,
Butterfly serenity…………


Fennigan Tyler Spencer
10-9-11

Solemn

Solemn daughter of the mid night sky,
What is the reach for you tonight?
The darkness does not cover,
The lights of the past,
The needle does not confuse,
One for the last,
The sadness does not play,
One with out the least,
This alone is another beast,
In temptation a disease,
The frustration to never please,
The mad effort to escape,
Dear dads minor disgrace,
A paltry sum,
That soul for another,
Inspiring one to release another………..

FTBAS 10.5.11

Try the knot

Twisted,
Bow,
Tied,
Low,
Simply,
Complex,
Roped,
Strung,
Together,
In laced,
End over,
Hangman loose,
Hangman noose,
Circle lock,
Tie the lot,
Before never,
Cosmic swirl,
Swinging girl,
Over end,
Unique,
Gentleman,
Trying the knot,
Of when………………..
Fennigan TBA Spencer 10.4.11

Yes Boss

Yes Boss
Less is more
Yes boss
I’m a whore
Yes Boss
Moist is better
Yes boss
When wetter
Yes Boss
Lace n Leather
Yes Boss
Im under paid
Yes Boss
Get it made
Yes Boss
With the laid
Yes Boss
Today
Yes Boss
Tonight
Yes Boss
What I like
Yes Boss
Working at it
Yes Boss
Looking at it
Yes Boss
At large
Yes Boss
Your in charge………….

FTBAS 10.4.11

Uncertain

It crept upon me quick as light,
The doubt of everything,
The discrepancy between day and night,
The no forgiveness for living,

A grin and bear it,
I’m gonna swear it,
Give it a fit,
Then forget it.

Heaven is certain,
As we are in it now,
Hell is for rent,
I said it out loud.

To sit here and judge,
Or make mistakes,
With holding a grudge,
Against the fakes.

Perceptive reality,
Normal conformity,
Of what used to be,
The hero in me…………………..

FTBAS 10.3.11

Cognizance

Deep,
Seep,
Rooted,
Booted,
Beta,
Later,
Version,
Coercion,
OGBA,
Today,
VCR,
Replay,
Disc,
Skip,
Stick,
Stuck,
Corridor,
When,
Then,
Past,
Last,
Forever,
R.I.P.
Ever,
Never,
Remember,
Seasons,
Old,
Days,
Ways,
Cells,
Smells,
Fails,
Victories,
Spark,
Make,
Start,
New,
Memories………………….


FTBAS 9.1.11

I am!

Hard,
Smooth,
Jagged,
Grooved,
Slippery when wet,
Better yet,
Formed to use,
Flat,
Round,
Lost,
Found,
Naturally man made,
Toss,
Through,
Skip,
Jump,
Covered up,
Laid in,
Foundation built,
Best alone,
When a rock becomes a stone………..

FTBAS 9.1.11

Exactly!

What’s the possibility of joining my mind time travel to it’s own reality, where East walks South as they circle around each other sweeping up the West all holding the hands together with North, cultures and generations of living, dead, saint and sinners, a circle for no beginners,no winners, gathered through out in a realm of sawdust and blood. The sun sets around each person as they light up the night. Their fires ageing within a space of a thimbles sigh. No one knows the other and we never ask why. Trembling upon the sight of love, bacon grease and calamity.

My relation to this situation seems to be to much pain to cover over and erase the dead, to much sorrow to cry, to much pain to die, in to much of everything we lie, concentrated, dedicated to those who have gone awry, captivated, emasculated, perorated, frustrated with legitimate proof of sanity.

Exactly!!!

FTBAS 9.30.11

Round Abound

Circles are complete,
Aren’t we?
Isn’t it neat?
A life to be,

In round abound,
Lighting travels,
Laughing sound,
Crying marvels,

From birth to grave,
Marching along,
King and slave,
It won’t be long,

The latter be the other,
Reach for ascension,
Child, son, daughter, brother,
Shift the dimension,

Collected friend,
Drawn with out,
An open end,
Round about……………

FTBAS 928.11

In The End

Right now a circle closes,
Right now a newborn cries,
Right now a model poses,
Right now somebody dies,
Right now a heart is broken,
Right now love is made,
Right now is a token,
Right now your on the way,
Right now someone lies,
Right now God speaks,
Right now shining eyes,
Right now evil creeps,
Right now the rain begins,
Right now the sun shines,
Right now the pain of sins,
Right now the twisted lines,
Right now all is forever,
Right now forget evermore,
Right now began to devour,
Right now is out the door,
Right now is yesterdays tomorrow,
Right now is like a burning fire,
Right now we can choose sorrow,
Right now we can search desire,
Right now isn’t really here,
Right now was a moment ago,
Right now is full of fear,
Right now is high and low,
Right now is a pace,
Right now is a tease,
Right now can’t replace,
Right now if you please……………

FTBAS 9.22.11

Off My Grid

Dear,
Grid,
Off,
Dissident,
On,
Irrelevant,
Camp,
Development,
Heart,
Commitment,
Lamp,
Shit,
Wipe,
Shine,
Water,
Wine
Well,
Pure,
Lover,
Sure,
Never,
More,
FEAR
False Evidence Appearing Real……………..

FTBAS 9.21.11

To be known!

To enter the zone,
To be pushed,
To be shoved,
To max the comfort,
To dry the desert,
To forget the past,
To no ones last,
To never be at home,
To stretch beyond,
To fall behind,
To wonder why,
To start to cry,
To belly laugh,
To cut in half,
To vanity,
To sanity,
To want,
To flaunt,
To desire,
To hire,
To the left,
To the right,
To be loved,
To sleep alone tonight,
To be loved,
Is to be known………………………..
Fennigan TBA Spencer 9.21.11

Long one,
Short one,
Time one,
Things one,
Done one,
Money one,
Daily one,
Home one,
Biz one,
Schedule one,
Thing to be done
Forgot one,
Found the old one,
Lost that one,
Started a new one,
Finished one,
When that was that last one,
For me to do……….

LIST

FTBAS 9.18.11

DREAM!

A walk out possession,
A day of nothing to own,
A soul completion,
A round globe,
A dance of union,
A place unknown,
A space of funnin,
A pace alone,
A hand in one,
An arm around another,
A watch over me,
A fight over together
A time of eternity,
A faint forever,
A measure in sanity,
A quick whatever,
A daylight dawning,
A night time to close,
A millennium of rapture,
A century of host,
A even out the poor,
A death to the pyramids,
A crush to the system,
A slight of conviction,
A presidential whore,
A want of more,
A thought about it,
A I doubt it,
A total not due.
A sight blind to see,
A goal to pursue,
For one to believe……………………..

Living

Living in a world of reason,
Of living and dying,
Plying in a world of treason,
Smiling and crying,
When a day turns a season,
From passion to desire,
I find the reason,
Of demons for hire…………
FTBAS 9.14.11

On the fly asking why

i remember asking why,
i lifted my head and wondered why,
i looked down and began to cry,
of all the pain running by,
on this train of running dry,
laid me down with out goodbye,
when we all must die,
then i closed up and fell inside,
all the while on the fly,
of asking why?

FTBAS 9.8.11

Call my Name

America where you been baby,
I can't find you graceful lady,
Out there hanging in self indulgence,
Only getting that what’s in it for us,
Riding the backs of the poor,
Living legends of lore,
Taxes that lasts forever,
Politicians acting so clever,
America is calling you baby,
We need that Zippo lighter and Harly D,
That you used to be,
That good stuff of quality a strength,
Folks that will go to any length,
Hard work to stop the war,
Knowing what you fighting for,
That rages still underneath and abroad,
Land of the free land of pride,
What you trying to hide?
Where did you go baby?
Where are you Lady?
It's time to be real,
Like that old Detroit steel,
Honor thy mother and father,
Support one another
Husband to wife, congress to the pres,
It the only way to success,

America is calling you baby, calling your name,

The almighty wise one,
Is with us the lost ones found on the horizon,
A strong backed boy and girl,
That can carry the world,
Struggle pain and all,
Not a moment to stall,
Call us baby call our name,
One and the same,
Why build buildings so high above?
When we can build some bridges of faith and Love,

Young America is calling, calling your name…………….

FTBAS 9.8.11

God face

VISION

Abstract hope has me dilly dally rally,
Over the sea to streets beyond the valley,
Of darkness held high upon the desert sky,
Blowing winds breeze across the canopy of life,
In visions of prophets prophecy,
Of what this worlds done with me,
Digital download of high expectation,
Have crept into our nation,
As savages of the couch,
Worshiping at the alter of TV,
Eating grease out of a bag,
Lives lived never knowing a soul was given for the burger in hand,
Scattered across the nuclear family wasteland,
No gratitude of Mother Earth and Father of creation,
Only in the revelation,
Confused that God is a self righteous receiver of plenty,
While we give in meager penance,
Expecting them to mend all,
When we fall,
No understanding that we are gods,
His most powerful of all the beast,
Our smallest doubt ruins commercial feast,
Thoughts of positive vibration,
Collective minds seeking fresh motivation,
Understanding that their will shall be,
Serving this hungry, hopeless and downbeat,
Gods children paving Eden with mercy and grace,
May my mirror show God's face……………………
FTBAS 8.31.11

Money Man!

You the money man,
Up from the sand,
Gold in hand,
You the money man.

Desired a soul,
Stripped clean and whole,
No inside trader fate,
Not one to imitate.

To easy,
So sleazy,
So light,
Simple sight.

Stack and run,
Money fun,
Dripped in blood,
Caped in good.

Robin Hood,
Masked man,
Money man,
Who I am………..


FTBAS 8.26.11

lost

I opened my wounds,
Tore the scabs away,
Pulled my self to the surface,
Watched as it came to be,
Stabbed at the heart of lies ,
Longing for destiny,
In my crown of goodbyes,
With out empathy,
Slow long forgiveness,
With out it I confess,
How I miss,
The best parts of me,
Lost in the forever mist,
Of what is and what could never be.....

FenniganT 8.25.11

What if Would?

What if the world were flat?
What if diamonds were wood?
What if it is my turn to bat?
What if just sitting I stood?

What if you held my hand?
What if first went last?
Where would we land?
Within the future or past?

What if reality wasn’t a bet?
What if momentum was full?
What if the desert was wet?
What would energy pull?

Would we shoot stars and hang planets?
Would we lease love and passion?
Would we drop lines and God Damit’s
Would it be an everlasting?

What if we kissed you and fell in love?
Would daylight start again?
What if all is born above?
Would what if be would then?


Fennigan TBAS 8.19.11

What I don't know

I know the sun rises every day
I know I miss you in every way
I know that truth is real
I know how I feel
I know lies distort reasons
I know that light changes seasons
I know that love is factual
I know mine is unconditional
I know who I am
I know my clan
I know my rights
I know my fights
I know my victories
I know my facsimiles
I know my defeats
I know my completes
I know my turn
I know you need to learn
I know that so do I
I know how time flies
What I don’t know is the whys?

Fennigan T 8.16.11

Sinner

Sinners believe
Deceiver’s achieve
Drinkers drink
Black holes
Worn feet
Holy soles
Sour knows
Bitter from sweet
Complete formation
Or evolution's beat
Lost in speculating
Of what this should be………..

Fennigan T 8.10.11

Confusion

In grief or agony,
To peace in harmony,
A circle has to be,
Full force trinity,
Dark fades light,
White shadows black,
Trying the dying,
Lasted head,
The end of the front,
Last in line,
Who’s the freak?
That Judas bled.
Oh the irony,
Mid summer disease,
Lost in ecstasy,
Of brain freeze,
So confusion,
Sets delusion,
With intrusion,
Not understanding,
Of the blessing,
Everlasting,
One for all………………
Fennigan T 8.11.11

For U

For in this ditty,
Of rhythm and rhyme,
No not in pity,
My dark sunshine.

Poison grasps my haven,
Rusty caged desperation,
Writing my poetry then,
In freedoms declaration.

So for what I write,
Exquisite mind bend,
Twisted knot tight,
Of beginning to end.

For when I sling,
Pen to paper,
Pauper to king,
Guest to waiter.

A way a light,
A stop a start,
A day a night,
May we never part.

May we never see,
May we never be,
Alone together,
In the form of poetry…………

Fennigan T 8.7.11

Bend

To see what’s in front,
Always looking behind,
What do we want?
From this thing called time.

A moment of silence?
A chance to scream?
A slow warm dance?
A night to wonder and dream?

Click, click,
Tick tock,
Pocket fit,
Broken clock.

Turn seconds of moments,
Into hours hours of daze,
One only rents,
The inventive ways.

To fill the gaps,
To hold the line,
Watch it elapse,
Into the sublime.

Meeting destiny on a rope,
Catching each other carefully,
Raising the hope,
Of what can be.

Oh jump the start,
Oh now is when,
Peace breaks the heart,
That doesn’t bend…………………

FenniganT 8.7.11

It's High Time

It high time,
For my bi line,
To set a record,
Fast forward,
In past legacy,
At last the best of me,
A lot of rising,
A lot of surviving,
A lot of pain,
A lot of crying,
Purple screams of passion,
Strong will never lacking,
Done with un packing,
Straighten the wheel,
On how I feel,
Ditches on both sides,
Of my ride
It’s high time
To let someone else drive…………

Fennigan T 8.3.11

Sparkle

On the day of the bright
darkness
and then again on the twelfth
it started all over
rising back to the beginning
of an ever arching circle
that went about in all directions
so I turned around
and there I was
standing there holding the light.

Fennigan T 7.30.11

Crowd

Where the walls open
The fields begin
With a window closed
Mind exposed
Rapture in delicacy
Formation without redundancy
Speculation beyond fantasy
Won’t you dance with me?
Bump all along
The halls of freedom
Shimmy down the signs of time
To sunsets of forget
Of reasons why
Sulk away to happiness
Chew this bone
As you scream it
Holler out loud
I’m lost and I want to go home………..……….

FenniganT 8.1.11

Callous

Wrist,
Finger,
Numbness,
Linger,
Flame,
Dust,
Rain,
Trust,
Lust,
Blindness,
Darkness,
Highest,
Bias,
Lost,
Tossed,
In,
Callous,
Cautious memories……..

Fennigan T Spencer 7.27.11

Cantara

Lights,
Beat,
Heart,
Drums,
Rattle,
Hums,
Buzzed,
Lungs,
Forced,
Air,
Exhale,
Inhale,
Wiggle,
Shake,
Sweet,
Sweat,
Taste,
Glows,
Hips,
Slow,
Eyes,
Show,
Smile,
Knows,
Chance,
Sweet,
Dance,
Whisper,
Desires,
Burning,
Fires …………

Fennigan T 7.26.11

Fennaditty

Ah la tee da ta.
Need it soon,
In and out to the rock ya,
Down in the basement locked ya,
Threw away the key and forgot ya,
Now you comin out spillin ya,
BOOM To BOOM
Making them swoon,
Folloween your parfume,
A la tee da,
Rock ya,
What you started,
Was at the end,
What you finished,
Needs to begin,
BOOM to BOOM,
Make some room,
Gotcha,
A la tee da, rappppa da la…………

Fennigan T 7.25.11

Friends

Friends balance the momentum of life’s little unexpected starts and stops.


FTBAS 7.24.11

I A

I think
A touch
I teach
A tangle
I tirade
A trick
I truth
A try
I tremble
A trounce
I trip
A tattle
I take
A talk
I tip
A thought
On why…………?

Fennigan T 7.22.11

Spirit Chaser

Spirit chaser
Two sided eraser
Swipe it all away

Liquid paper
Carbon copy
Gone astray

Outside the lines
Colors in no space
Spirit chaser

Pencil in place………..


Fennigan T. 7.21.11

Maybe

This all we have,
This all we why,
This all we laugh,
This all we cry.

This all we wonder,
This all we grace,
This all we ponder,
This all we waste.

This all we take,
This all we give,
This all we make,
This all we live,

Maybe,
One day,
Maybe,
We will change…………….

Fennigan T. 7.20.11

Comfort in Whispers

Shhh! someone to listen,
Be so quiet my friend,
Under intuition,
Of an ear to bend.

Shhh! someone to listen,
Be so soft my friend,
Without hesitation,
Or dollar to lend.

Shhh! someone to listen,
Be so still my friend,
Whisper them,
The who and when.

Shhh! someone to listen,
Be so afraid to pretend,
Under suspicion,
Of you my friend.


FenniganT 7.18.11

Glancing in the memory of me……..

Dancing of shadow memory,
Of what used to be,
Determined with short cuts,
Memory of smoking butts,
Glass spilt and broken,
All had been spoken,
Wrapped plastic fantasy,
Blindness in apathy,
Prison of ignorance,
Barbed wire fence,

Will never go back,
With nothing to lack,
Will stand tall,
Will freefall,
Will begin again,
Will be a real man,

Not in a lost way,
In a lead play,
Not in a fear trod,
A role to God,
All in stand up,
Busted luck,
Shared space,
All in faith,
That integrity,
Honesty,
Revelry,
Chivalry,
Lovely,
Reflections to see,
Glancing in the memory of me……..

Fennigan T 7.17.11

Fennigan's Rainbow

Sitting low on broken winds,
Clouds fill rolling tear swells,
Darkness falls as rain descends,
Lighting crashes thunderous tales,


At the stark of night and dark of light,
Swimming in warm colored faux ecstasy,
Precious voices whisper delightful insight,
In simple songs of ravaged majastry.

Fennigans rainbow lies within days,
Between ripped and broken,
Ending on the hope of new waves,
A rainbow shared thus spoken.

Fennigan T 7/19/11

So there I lay

Standing at the box,
Dressed in best,
Curly locks,
Eyes at rest,

Frozen in time,
Music dancing,
Drinking the wine,
Swiftly glancing,

Whisper of quiet,
Wonders at large,
Shadows in the night,
It’s the what’s that are.

Confusion of why so early,
Why so late,
If it all is purly,
Waiting upon that open gate.

So here I lay,
So here I lie,
So here I pray,
So here I die.

Standing at the box,
Dressed in best,
Curly locks,
Eyes at rest.

So there I lay…………


Fennigan T 7.11.11

Fennigan where are you?

I am in a moment of time that started just before another one that was not so much like this one.

Vessel

I love it when God uses me as a vessel to write my name universally across the skies in the colors of love.

Choice

Along the edge,
Like a snail on a razor,
Over the ledge,
It doesn't faze her,

The choice is blindness,
The choice a reminder,
The choice of kindness,
The choice not for her,

The point is blameless,
The grace is partner,
The face is nameless,
The image is not her,

But all the same,
In all the rain,
Of all the pain,
We've been washed away.

Cold steel choices,
None to regret,
Bright light forces,
Seasons to forget.

Her and what she sees
Me and what I choose,
The life she breathes,
From my self hung noose………………

Fennigan T 7.6.11

The well

Head hung low,
Wrist slapped in words,
Sent me slow,
Creeping me forwards.

Entered my disability,
Pail light of sunshine,
Reflected in frailty,
Made to hide sublime.

What is parental guidance?
In obscene science,
Sloppy word dance?
Owns our times.

Who’s the judge?
Where’s the justice,
Who pulled the rug?
Out from amongst us?

We didn’t know,
We didn’t recall,
What stopped the flow?
From the well once and for all…………

Fennigan T 5.23.11

In my red sunset of heavens rhapsody

“To be or not to be” is what the ol boy said,
Well fuck remembering the dead,
Give em a toast,
Then let them be compost,
Take my cue,
Living souls are what to do,
Love one then love another,
Love your self along the way,
Forget the path of material sway,
Swallow nature and spew peace,
Spread your love like a fucking disease,
Well not like an STD but you know what I mean,
Lets get off it,
Lets get in on,
Lets move this planet right along,
To the end of its beginning and back again,
Crumble in the cities,
Crumble in the towns,
Watch with me as it all comes down,
Dabbling on the outer edge of calamity,
Rattling caged nerves of insanity,
In my red sunset of heavens rhapsody…………
Fennigan T 5.20.11

In impression

A smear
A smudge
A fear
A grudge
A longing
A desire
A watching
A fire
A sweep
A song
A reap
A wrong
A memory
A dream
A fantasy
A stream
A lesson
In impression......

FenniganT 5.19.11

Doubt

In my breath was a glance,
At the abandoned human dance,
Of gentlemen and lady like,
In such a dark bright.

A single homeless one,
A hungry child tears run,
A mother knows not what to do,
In the survival of these many few.

Casual remarks slice deep wounds,
Flinches of pain like poison blooms,
Scars from never can tell that they are there.
Hiding fear and doubt in this sea of disrepair,

I am touching back the face of humanity,
I am instilling the thought of future legacy,
I am shouldering the toil,
On the arrangement of common soil.

Locking my arms holding one over lay,
Building mounds of common ground this way,
To fill rainbow colored skies with children’s smiles,
In loving the doubt and fear away……….

FenniganT 5.17.11

Dirt

In a searching of afar,
Makes one a wondering star,
In the wonderings why,
If the top is really sky,

See the bottoms up,
In the beginning of luck,
The lines a day off start,
Searching blind in the dark.

My journey long the wicked,
My walk amongst the saints,
My paper my brush,
My pen my paint.

Towing my row of dirt today,
That sweet soft spot where I intend to lay,
A song softly played alone,
Among my broken trees of stone,

Write I will on this wall,
In the epitaph of my call,
In the beginning of the end,
I have come around once again……….

Fennigan 5.15.11

Hidden

Behind the heart
Beyond the eye
Before the start
Beneath the sky

Hiding it all
Holding it one
Helping it fall
Hearing it run

Resonance of residence
Reasoning of believing
Ration of silence
Reeling of feeling

You’re away to right
You’re away to belong
You’re away to light
You’re away to wrong


My away bent
My away pain
My away sent
My away game…………..

Fennigan T
5.28.11

Shadow

A vision change of re arraign
In pleasantry of rainbow tapestry
I open my eyes but can not see
The floating image of you in front of me
I search along the memory banks
Standing in the middle of the flood plain
Waiting for it to all come down again
For this last soothing rain
To wash away
The stain of you soiled upon my shadow.

FenniganT 5.23.11

Somewhere

In the dark empty
Bled out empathy
Found in vast askew
Upon noticing you

Your white horse has gone pale
Your black eyes tell the tale
Signs of what you’ve been doing
Of division amongst the ruin

Warm souls scatter when you enter
Then all grows cold in the center
Of any light seeking peace
You're a walking mine in a mindless disease

That grey bag you carry
With the load of fear you tarry
Shows the pain you are hiding
Shines like a dead star blinding

So sorry slept away today
Forgiveness walked away
Revenge stepped in its place
Upon the neck of disgrace

Evidence contorted
Lies resorted
For only a fool to believe
That you are free of me…………

FenniganT 5.22.11

Thinking

Man what are we thinking?
That got us here blinking
Do you really arrive?
When you let somebody else drive?


Going down easy
Feels so pleasing
Holding up the show
For one more ticket sold


What we want
What we taunt
Is this feeling of divide
Attention to least confide

In the middle of the road
Ditch dark silent episode
In what direction to choose
So none of us lose

The weight of abuse
Has been cut loose
In this system of over done
Is where I'm coming from……………….

Fennigan T
5.14.11

Dot by Dot

Deafening light swayed all the sound

Dirt mountains up and left the ground

Covered in masses of corruption and greed

Left out in the sun to burn and bleed



Upon the rubble of human sanctity

Upon the insignificance of humanity

In the frailness of a chance danger

In the airless litany of mans anger



A rant, a rave, a bible, a grave

A soul needing to be saved

A descendant covered in grief

A shattering of disbelief



Decision and time

Understanding the rhyme

Solving the puzzle of not

Connected dot by dot…………..



Fennigan T 5.7.11

WOW!

Wolf of Wisdom
Wrong of Wrongs
Wring of Waves
Webster of Weed
Whiff of Whey
Woman of Wisdom
Wisket of Worcester
World of Wishes
Wonder of Wonders
Walking on Water
World of Woes
WoW!!!
Who knows?
Fennigan T 5.6.11

Beautiful Alabama

Down here we got something beautiful,
Down here mother’s boys are dutiful,
Sky so Blue you swear its water that never ends,
Mountains climbing into lakes of hot summer swims,
Roads lined with tall proud pines,
Ripples of light running across highway lines,
Beams of a gold rising coast sunning to set,
In a land that’s a show in best of bet,
People blending in with their culture,
A church on almost every corner,
Football is a religion and so is fishing,
Southern legacy’s have strongest family’s wishing,
That civil rights isn’t a passage of their brothers,
As much as hunting is for others,
Some of the smartest toughest Gentlemen alive live here,
Along with the most powerful ladies you will meet,
Dignity in their walk and sincerity in their greet,
Patience on every corner with plants in every yard,
Green every where that can’t be ignored,
Most Alabamians love this land as Eden,
Even with its past of broken and bleeding,
Pure bread Americans that hear no doubt,
While some do and others do with out,
Veterans get salutes and blank stares,
With hustlers on corners selling their wares,
Trailer parks line the fields and back roads,
Trains long and winding carrying their heavy loads,
Past the mansions on a city’s hill,
Feel free to think of us what you will,
We will tell you our home is where we make it,
A land with divide but no longer split,
On Wednesday April twenty eighth two thousand and eleven,
Some of our beauty was taken to heaven,
Though some parts may be missing,
Weren't you listening?
Many parts are just gone,
In Beautiful Alabama we are strong,
Together we will rebuild,
Together we will fulfill,
Together with all our grief,
Together with all our belief,
Standing tall and proud together hand in hand,
In our Home Sweet Home Beautiful Alabama Land………………

Fennigan
5.3.11

On the cross

On a cross in the ground
Forgiveness from earthly bound

Depth of a love shown not told
Passed from young heart to old

A mesmerizing ocean of possibility
That he chose to die for me

Be it the son of God! Cause no other chose to pay
A life of peace for their own of pain and agony

Many preached and preached but never could
For the new beginnings in which my father stood

Or bear the weight of heavens gate
While self serving at the love level plate

The place where law has its reason
It calls out those who pawn treason

Cull the cold wild ones who have no clue
Of passion born anew

Gather the heard and protect each other
In living and breathing love for one another

Father of creation Mother of nature
Your gave your only son so pure

To his death we stand in grand formality
In his death we were all saved from tragedy

On the cross of humanity...........


Fennigan T 4.21.11

Enchanted

The breeze dry filled with century’s old salt
Deep in glancing blows of abandoned thought
Her fingers hang loose dripping in the heat
Evolving a fantasy never quite complete

Ever so soft caressing her glass to catch the cool sweat
Her lips numb biting down the smile ruining her bet
As her hat shades her eyes that he had often met
In a house of wonder, desire and suspect

A soft flute tossed its notes along the wind
As brittle glitters of sunlight shone within
Palms fan the sun with dancing shadows
The breaking waves smooth in woven flows

She takes him below in her ways
Till alls the end of days
Immortal essence left in glorious streams
The enchanted love of dreams…………

Fennigan T 4.19.11

Sea

We cross open wide and vast
On spent storms blown past
Afloat in horizons of liquid fire
Sunrise brews our faintest desire

Feed on the American palette
Gentle rhythms to forget
Waves swirl the tongue
Fetal mind goes numb

Enchanted in a daydream
Caught in the jet stream
In the outside of clarity
On the inside of fantasy

Inland deposits of golden beaches
Shine the glow of what peace teaches
To those whose choose to row
Instead of go with the flow………..

Fennigan T 4.18.11

Longing

I mummy stumbled in a dummy fall
Scratched my name on a narrow wall

Wound down like a toy out of the box
A rabbit caught fair and eaten by the fox

Rubber banded my love to never rest
Years go by before feeling less

Of the total darkness exposed in a soul
When a heart beats in two to one whole

Beneath the lonesome shy smile
All is discovered after a while

Eyes sparked in dark waiting desire
Enshrined like globes of eternal fire

Of bloodied knees begging mercy
Knowing how it hurts me

Between my new ray of sunshine
In longing of a space and time

Fennigan T 4.16.11

Walk Away

Over long before the wait began
Innocence preached from a forgiven land

Paths wide and some narrow
Out of the ends of any two pair of

Silenced veiled over tender eyes
In our land of plenty lies

Hunger cries for love bone
Below the corner beside left alone

Without the crib eye ceiling fixed
Filling the soul something mixed

From the street as homeless can be
The babies in lost land of free

Peace and madness go hand in hand
In the honey of our dream demand

In the steam of human race
Limping earthly crib to grave

We all give up sometimes
We all give in.......

We all walk away from the dance
When we give peace a chance……….

FenniganT 4.13.1

Swimming

The rush of the water
The taste of salt
A free breeze blows
Pulling one taught
Against the current of rational desire
The implied silence of minds for hire
Rising up on swells
The cold current rushing below
Floating in the dark
Understanding all there is to know
About the possibilities
In the realities
In the formalities
About the calamities
That we all complete
In the shallow
In the deep
Under their waterfalls
We creep
To breathe…………
FenniganT 4.5.11

Caged Away

Why are we held up curled deep at arms length away? Flashing our studded dismay with practiced specialty. Of keeping the pain out, bouncing it off like mirror tricks, at the beach on a sunny day. Blind them first before the light can get in. Cut to the quick slash of empty within. Ringing bells toll of clocked space in emotional desire. Empty want wiggles free in a solid march with destiny. In a solemn walk of the great divide, taken with passions death kiss, upon Egos pride. Localized numbing inserted in voluntary mass.
Thinking one more caged bird might give peace a chance……………



FenniganT 4.5.11

Believe

Believe that we would not lead the other in the wrong direction
We would not purposely hurt us
We would be always acting in our best interest
We would not correct the other or argue in company
We are human we will make mistakes
So when we do please remember that it wasn’t on purpose
It wasn't out of spite
It wasn't out of anger
It is not a game
We should be doing our best to make it right
Every intention is good
All the wisdom in the world will not keep us from a fall
What we got to do is believe in each other for the pick up

FenniganT 3.24.11

Devious

I’ve played the saint to long
I’ve sang your love song
You devoured me whole
Now I gotta let you go

Give me a reason to not erase you
Give me a reason why
Give me a reason to love you
Give me a reason for an alibi

Devious snake in the grass
How long must this last
Devious devil in disguise
How long must I cry

For loving you is misery
Losing you was best
It took all to free me
I’ll give you one guess

Of where this is going
All the while knowing
It’s coming down on you
I’m framed you fool………..

FenniganT 3.23.11

Brilliant

Decisions and responsibility
Health care and sanity
Money and bribes
Truth and those telling lies

So ones way is like no ones others
Changed rules to fit their druthers
Coming down on to this earth
Avenged in the fields of worth

Sanctioned thought bites driving race
Cornered into cubes of circled space
On the web of absurdity
Just in a blink of century

Its all stupid and brilliant
Its all wet and damp
Its all blunt and sharp
Its all strings torn apart

No touch no soul
No poet no whole
Brimming to fulfill it
Are the lost people of brilliant………

FenniganT 4.20.11

Sometimes in Heaven

Holding the back beat of your favorite tune
Like a feeling you get with a rising full moon
A dance you never had in a room so gritty
Alas a gentle note floats notion in this ditty

About waiting a hearts full of desire
About working calculations in a mind for hire
Around the corner bent fate to destiny
Alley walls hold a curious journey

Down level looking over shoulder
While inside the fire is over
A thousand smiles and memories pose
An answer in each question I suppose

With out asking why do we do or die

In heaven truth comes
Startling reasons of ones
Daydreams of sunny skies
Believing is the demand of ideas
Seeing does not know what to choose
Nothing is more dangerous
The man with nothing to loose…..

Fennigan T 4.18.11

The Humble Stumble

You ain’t lived till
You’ve done the walk
You ain’t breathed till
You talked and talked


Everybody that grows
Everybody that knows
Anybody who’s to wonder
Into The Humble Stumble
Daymares of uncontrollable regret
Moos shines dark moments of forget
Everybody blurs to see you enemy
Knowing a doubt of what they see

When friends and lovers
Turn into vultures and buzzards
Circling to pick your bones
Crushed in all the corner zones

The Humble Stumble
A walk then some
A Humble Stumble
The walk of freedom………………………
FenniganT 3.14.11

Perfect Fit

In it you
In it me
In reality
In the all it can be
The sun sets still
The waves break beach
The moon always in reach
To learn
To teach
To earn
There are lessons
As it all goes down
A peek inside
Those will know
Those who don't mind
Those who can flow
With stop and go
Searching to and fro
Outside for something inside
A perfect fit
That we just can’t get
Out of the closet…………..
Fennigan TBA Spencer 3.12.11

Day Dreams

Day
Coffee
Laundry
Sunrise
Dawn
Write
Wrongs
Left
Throngs
Of
Ups
And
Downs
Ink’s
Outs
Doubts
Tomorrows
Todays
Yesterdaze
Says
Yes
Pray
To
Open
Possible
Dreams
FenniganT 3.8.11

Love me or Hate Me

Like that
Like this
The cat
The risk
Drum me a roll
Mixed in the licker bowl
Like some kinda physco
In a battery roll
On a daily toll
Of oil and water
Whats to matter
For the laughter
Rags to tatter
Richs winnin
Got u spinnin
Naw just Fennin
Todays the day
The wash comes into play
Out the rinse
In the dryer
On the fire
Spin in cycle
Love me or hate me
Gotta respect thee
From purchase to delivery…….
FenniganT 3.1.11

Swinging

Out the on the edge
Fear of falling through
A crumbling ledge
Don’t know what to do

In the start of the fall
Breath pulled from lungs
In wonder of it all
Flying pass the rungs

Grasp for hands fast
Look in the faces
In all that’s past
Of all the places

Left behind
Foots step sometimes alone
Sometimes with friend
It all you ever known

It’s not in tomorrow or how
The beginning of something new
Swinging in moment of now
Are the dreams you peruse

Fennigan T 2.26.11

Small

In those moments
When you feel so small
Take your atonements
Scribble them on the wall
Write them obscure
Send them throughout
The universe of doubt
Exchange them for clouds
Of silver lining
Rays of hopeful shining
Reach up to believe
Closed your eyes to see
Scream it forms in your lungs
I am free of all bonds
I am free of cons
Have your conscious as your best friend
Integrity streaming memory of when
Truth in the dark was found
From the being into your realm
Stretching life from shore to shore
Sharing your beautiful score
Breathe in most of all
Breathe out the small
FenniganT 2.25.11

T.A.L.

Catch in a glimpse
My wisps of air go by
As I slip fence
Within the blink of an eye
Rents been done
Lights are on
I set the tone
I raise the sun
I’ve just begun
My little fun
Moonshine run
To take it over
To follow rover
Whisky frisky
What am me
Nothing can see
Nothing can be
In your world of mastery
In my moment of grace
In my moment of taste
I can no longer hate
The envy of your place in me………
Fennigant 2.22.11

Take Away

Scars,
Fade away,
Scabs,
Peel away,
Refrain,
Take away,
Nothing,
To you,
Wuz sumthin,
To Me,
Nuthin to me,
Iz everything for you,
Real,
Open,
Pain,
Looksee,
Oopsie,
Wanted it,
Not done it,
No need to run,
What it?
Done,
Is this fun?
Dumb me,
Silenced,
Now,
Best still,
Taken away…………
FenniganT 9.12.10

Lonely

Where does lonely go
When it’s not trying to find you
What does lost do
About what’s to loose
Sights all about rip
Sounds surround fits
Says loud and out there
Speaks of loss and despair
Creeps along halls of shape
Lurks in depths of hate
Regrets the whole damn thing
Refuses to do the same
Starting over just ain’t right
When lonely fights its good fight………..
FenniganT 2.16.11

Crossroad

Intersecting in bliss
Almost a near miss
Returning to the end
Of where it began
Starting over in the dawn
Running over all along
Sinning the same ol song
Brief can’t take long
Tunnel up and out
Mind turning doubt
Wind blowing through
Know what to do
Forget the rest
Try the best
Simple direction of focus
Upstate below the main line
Gonna be there on time
The same
The fame
The name
In the crossroad game……….
Fennigan T 2.15.11

Storm

Of this might flow
Spirits chased out the mourning door
Essence discounted as a fearless rage
When the book of life turns the page
Sounds resonate from future blessing
All the while you can keep guessing
On the which the why and the where
The only truth is you will be there
When it all comes down
When it all blows up
When crashes abound
When you’re out of luck
The roll will begin
As the storm sets in
You’re gonna get wet
You may even have regret
But then off it goes
As surely as the wind blows
Storms don’t last forever……………..
Fennigan T 2.11.11

ascension

Lets go all the way today,
Some where deep in the shallow end,
No worry, Ill light the way,
To the introduction of Fennigan,
You see some are born to wallow,
Some are born to lead,
Some are born to follow,
It’s all on the walls for you to read,
A bout the place of tense I am,
If I let you if I dare,
To view the pain and disrepair,
The rooms full of fear,
With poison in the air,
But that’s just the top layer,
A protective shield,
Guarding the prayer,
To my beauty field,
Of love and grace,
Of the one who holds the hurt,
To save a face,
That’s in my dirt
Making up the fool,
So that one can be free,
So it you who is cool,
Holding my tongue tight,
Let the dogs lie,
Not caring if you look right,
Time will go by,
Truths may never be seen,
But beautiful I will open,
Shiny new and clean,
Into the cavern of hope,
The passage of misspoken,
Time essentially a rope,
Pulled taught tied in knots,
Your safety holds are ascension,
Into my chosen lots,
Of what I fail to mention…………
Fennigan T 2.7.11

Balanced?

Sliding across the razors edge,
The trapeze wire swings saintly,
Slowly it arches to the ledge,
Grasping slightly towards sanity,
In moments of years since,
Wondering if it was real,
An essence of deliverance,
A dead deed of will,
A fall out of sorts,
Inside magnificent of course,
Regret the dreams of the young,
As they in turn torment the old,
On the tip of the tongue,
No matter the bend or fold,
Believe,
Believe,
I
Fennigan T 2.6.10

Purely Selfish

Every body’s,
Got a reason,
Client,
Customer,
Capitalist for sure,
Castrated
Saturated,
Masturbated,
Sexual and pure,
Wants for you,
Wants for me,
Wants for everybody,
They ain’t here,
You ain’t there,
Only one thin line,
To declare,
A moment,
Of self,
A moment in time,
A moment they want,
Just in your line,
If not for them,
Then another,
Brother Sister,
Father Mother,
They all want,
We all need,
That moment of greed,
Wouldn’t be there,
Wouldn’t know the time,
It’s all purely selfish,
And always right on a dime.

FenniganT 10.18.10

Sage

As we grow with time,
Like a flower on a vine,
We weather the storms,
As our shape forms,
We stretch in the light,
Sleep in the night,
Spread seeds to multiply,
Sweet honey bee fly,
Our wisdom is made of scars,
Our years no longer at large,
Grace, elegance and beauty,
In smile of scrutiny,
The age of the sage is not told in years,
Or in the counting of our fears,
It is shown in love everlasting,
In the fine art of compassion,
From the hungry belly fed,
To good night and off you’re led,
There is now wonder and no pretense,
Of the ones who make a difference……
Fennigan T 1.31.11

When to quit listening

From internal divide,
A socially hypnotized,
Device on analog,
Disguised in a digital world,
When to quit listening…………
Is to hear a buzz,
A locomotive on the tracks,
Screaming down the line,
No slow down,
Been there on time,
See ya next go round,
Maybe we will dine,
Split an acronym,
Or a synonym,
Over an anomaly,
Of our future reality,
No Face to Face.
Gives no flower breaks,
Doesn’t feed the world intakes,
Not enough in the food banks,
Can’t make guns shoot blanks,
Not enough but theirs is so much,
We must be out of touch,
Or is it out of luck,
Maybe it because we left the tribe,
Or was it a vibe,
Within a sigh,
Bang a cry,
Curl up and lie,
Inside of the divide,
Wrap up in security,
Of what is and well ever be,
Stare solid in the face,
Of dreaming your own reality……………
FenniganT 1.29.11

You R Beautiful

Stumbling on the street,
Over cracked crevice,
Trip over a tweet,
Psycho over a device,
Chronic in depression,
Little in confession,
Something so random,
Comes to mind,
You are beautiful,
A thought universal,
System going reversal,
Of want of what we’ve lost,
A romantic dude courting a lady in wait,
Golden solitude on sunsets boasts,
An open gait held be the ghost,
A table set elegant majestic,
Feast ready with wine flowing,
Of everybody playing canonistic,
A kinder gentler all knowing,
Times here don’t waste it………………
Fennigan T 1.27.11

Poem

Something of passion,

Something devote,

Something everlasting,

Something to show,

Scattered memories,

Like shards of glass,

Opened up tragedies,

Mourning’s of past,

Harvested from fields of green,

Where blood has enriched,

The soils obscene,

Tears have been fetched,

In response to a dream,

Of everlasting sadness,

In an eternal glow,

Of mutual madness,

Where souls grow,

To be among themselves,

Alone in holes caving,

Reaching out with light,

All the while slaving,

For something right……..

Fennigan T 1.25.10

Developing a mental state of pandemonium

A mental state of pandemonium,
Dressed to blessed to depressed to back again,
Going out to the radiant dream,
Coming into the primal scream,
Large pink one floating a lot,
All is never lost among the rot,
All you got to do is your best,
Its hustle its flow,
Round up before knocked down,
Act in the show,
Turn the valve on full,
Check out what’s in the skull,
A mind rolling the cromag down the street,
Brains and old gut dragging behind webbed feet,
Crossed evolution reversing itself,
A distant shelf hanging low,
For something that will never come accept once,
The last one we think to own,
A casket stop that won’t be there,
Neither will all see,
In the glory and peace of eternity,
Then the truth will grow,
To long gone alone,
Together everybody ever known,
Crossing over into pandemonium.
Fennigan T 1.22.10

Where flowers grow!

Sweating toil sheen back,
Turning the topsoil under up,
Scorching sun answers,
The universe turns abrupt,
One beat in a heart,
Something can start,
To flow and grow,
Sitting still in the mode,
Natural growth down and outward,
Splitting oneself reaching mighty,
The roots must grab hold,
While stalk pushes through,
The same in everything,
From me to you,
A push in a pull,
A balance in self growing,
A strive to be alive,
And all the while knowing,
We are flowering invert,
Rising out of the dirt…………..
FenniganT 1.22.10

Alter Ego

I got this cloud
This is my thermal
Soaring on high
Is how I feel
Soaring on high
Is how I heal
Looking down on creation
At fields of abundance
With the most deadly of intention
Smell of blood is real
Preys energy I feel
Deadly I dive for kill
Best meat for me
Then I skin the wares
Bones and marrow
I split for shares
Up again and gone
Soaring high I cry my song
Circling life in deaths destiny…………
FenniganT
1.21.10

Repo

My soul has been repo’d,
My deed vetoed,
My mind over loaded,
My heart corroded,
Just to much pain,
Just to much rain,
Just to much insane,
Just to much today,
Forget me not,
Forget me when,
Forget my needs,
Forget me please,
Your voice healed,
Your sight stilled,
You plight chilled,
Your fight thrilled,
No more will,
No more feel,
No more real,
No more deal,
Goodbyes last,
Goodbye’s task,
Goodbyes to you,
Goodbyes for me,
Goodbyes set us free,
FenniganT………
1.21.10

Split

I slice open,
A vain in heaven,
To talk to God,
I got to question,
About these goings on here,
Why everybody is walking in fear,
Can we be that stupid?
Believing in a Cupid,
Of holy holiday happiness,
Twelve months a year,
A holiday for sadness,
Useless normal complaining,
The price so low it’s gaining,
Not alive if they ain’t straining,
Credit card balance swap,
Souls from the bottom,
To the top,
Whatever that is,
Why we run from,
All of the fun,
It’s all here,
In the middle of tears,
A light of gleaming thunder,
Dark skies of wonder,
Gloomy blooming jeers,
Shedding faulty fears,
Faith is the pace,
The tie two lace,
Into our hearts,
Hope is the place,
That stops and starts,
Love filling our cup,
To split hearts,
Out of luck………….
Fennigan T 1.19.11

Word paint

Word paint,
No complaint,
Of favor,
Of endeavor,
Open my scope,
Compose what I know,
On the road,
On the path,
With class,
You laugh,
My task,
Laid in rows,
Words of calm,
Words of mighty,
Words make it tighter,
Words not me,
Make it wider,
Poets don’t care,
Poet’s bleed ink stains,
Words of beauty,
Words of duty,
Words of insane,
It a strain,
It s a pain,
Its reading,
It conceiving,
An idea,
A thought,
A doubt,
A know,
In the flow……….
FenniganT 1.17.10

Spoke

I went out and spoke into the other side of me,
I looked in at what others are afraid to see,
Windows of scars deep and jagged,
Wounds covered over years of habit,
Scabs peeled back open to ooze,
Filled them in with drugs, woman and booze,
Covered them up and licked em shut,
Daylight through dark got me in a rut,
Running through dances with heels on my feet,
In between naps is when I creep,
Along the corridors of mine,
Through the doors of my time,
From my birth Ive been walking here,
Alone raging and ranting in fear,
Wrapping it on down,
To the basic conversation,
Where ya goin kid?
The paths are wide open,
The doors are closing,
Don’t you want to come in?
Fennigan T 1.15.10

This way down

The giggle,
The climb,
The wiggle,
The blind,
The wonder,
The find,
The follow,
The mind,
The want,
The desire,
The need,
The higher,
The seed,
The flower,
The best,
The power,
The test,
The beast,
The jest,
The feast,
The last,
The first,
The past,
The burst,
The laugh,
The cry,
The lost,
The why,
The cost,
This way on down………
FenniganT
1.13.10

Drag

Drag me on,
Drag me long,
Drag my own,
Drag me on down,
Drag me a smoke,
Take me around,
Take me a toke,
Pull me up,
Run my spout,
Walk me about,
Turn me out,
Drag it along,
Drag it clear,
Drag afar,
Pull a tear,
Hold a fear,
Dragging this load,
On down the road,
My shoulders on over load,
Dragging behind,
Dragon I’ll find,
To kill in kind,,
This dragging on my mind…..
FenniganT 1.12.10

Paint Job

Adjacent road of memory triggers faulty,
A map of tranquility in the flow of reality,
Where a junction should be connecting moon at midnight,
Rolling soft a cold breeze covers the night,
In the lane of spirit flight held by the tether,
A welded feather pulls in stillness.
Obscurity imploded with a pace,
Space filled lines of mind trip molded,
A glimpse at the end would start to begin,
Streaming flashing lights of color,
Splatter internal walls of Fennigan……….
FenniganT 1.9.10

Tip Toes

Tip toes,
Count shows,
One number under,
A slight lumber,
Of dark an cold,
Getting old,
Walking on,
It’s under there,
Behind blank stare,
Pleading past blare,
Caress midnights scream,
Into light bulb day scene,
So when it is it ain’t,
A how do rank?
To whom do complain?
What vent vein to drain?
Let’s explain,
Insanity,
What me?
No see,
Saw law,
Wonder am,
Fenn Flam,
Don’t rise,
Closed eyes,
Dreamt disguised,
As color flies bye……………
FenniganT 12.23.10

Diamonds

Steep step walking up
Steep steps tripping down
Slippery when wet
I’m telling ya man

Walking this way ain’t weak
Like linins of silk
Not like crying over spilt milk
Praying is real sweet

I’m a rider with you
I gotcha back
When you lack
Is what he says

When demons try
To sway my ace
I’m calling cards with the best
I got diamonds in faith……….
FenniganT 4.7.10

School

Im gonna say sumthin cool,
Im gonna pull the rule,
Im not gonna try to fool,
Im just wanna school,
You on me,
See this is it,
Only today,
Only one fit,
Only one take,
One bet better,
One bet down,
Done up,
Locked up,
In freedoms hell,
Can you tell?
From where I fell?
To where Im goin,
To what im sayin,
To I ain’t playin,
For all Im prayin,
In my walk,
In my talk,
Cause I know,
Every second,
Every moment,
Is a turn,
A choice,
An opportunity,
To be,
Too see,
To learn,
To burn,
To suffer,
To praise,
To play,
To feel just ok,
Every one we give away,
Doesn’t come back another day,
The mislead,
The missed deed,
A lost chance,
Is not destiny…………..
FenniganT 1.6.11

Least

Bottoms up,
Top down,
Mack truck,
Blown town,
Out of luck,
Full of clown,
This and that,
Pitter pat,
Look around,
The least of these,
Sick and poor,
In prison behind,
A locked door,
Young and old,
Freedoms here,
We are told,
Lest we forget,
To remember,
Why they met,
Not to hinder,
Dealings,
Feelings,
Kneeling on the ceiling,
Healing,
Begging,
Crying,
Dying,
Reaching for,
Bliss,
Forgiveness,
In,
Trinkets,
Tablets,
Pimps and whores,
Beggars and thieves,
All pleased to deserve,
The least of what we serve,
Is love and nothing more………
FenniganT 1.5.11

Ah!

Do me ,
A la,
Ring me,
Say na,
Shoo me,
Can ya?
Feel me,
Ugh na,
Steel me,
Bend da,
Hard me,
Pump tha,
Real me,
Stump tha,
Soft me
Chump tha,
Fool me,
Raise tha,
Me,
Costa,
Me,
Losta,
Me,
On ya,
Man a,
Me,
Got a,
Me,
Go ya,
Ah !!!!!!!
FennniganT 1.4.11

H G

In freedoms realm,
A master at the helm,
Degenerate lamb,
Deceiver of man,
Liar at that,
Set it flat,
Liar a few,
Don’t know what to do,
Sliding on the up,
Jumping on the down,
In case here,
That was found,
Messy spacer,
Spikes of pain,
Island of mother,
Pouring rain,
Shelter them Father,
This world of pain,
Is no longer,
Your strife,
He saved your life,
The Father of perfect,
Bends the road free,
In no neglect,
Of what you can’t FenniganT…….
Fennigan
1.2.11

Bouncy Thing

Ring a ding,
Sing a song,
Make it long,
Something wonderful,
Southing pure,
Something fair,
Something sure,
Round square,
Pull out in,
Sides are turning,
Blowin in the win,
Roll it burning,
Pushin sin,
A daft hand,
Burning brand,
Fuckin insight,
Left victor right,
Bouncy thing,
Old ring,
In out,
Choir sing,
No doubt,
Bouncy thing,
Sing my song,
Ring a ding,
All night long………..
FenniganT 1.2.11

Neck

Slip Stream,
All born,
To form,
Wet cream,
Eyes clean,
Honey dream,
Line hear,
Drop fear,
From there,
To here,
Throat warn,
Cries wallow,
I mourn,
Tomorrow,
More,
Swallow,
Lumps,
Humps,
In whole,
I let go,
Low,
Slow,
Down,
Lines,
Frown,
Times,
Speck,
View,
Clown,
Chin,
Two,
Neck,
On down……………..
FenniganT 1.1.11

Happy Birthday Gemmaw I miss you,