Forgiven!

Didn’t walk the line,
Did the crime,
Made it mine,
Owned it,
Sought it,
Fed it,
Bled it,
For all its worth.
So I thought,
Turned around,
Found out,
It was milking me.
Breaking me down,
Making me weak,
Addicted in excess,
Further the regress.
I went,
Under,
Gasping for forgiveness,
Where’s my air?
There it is!
He never left,
Father Forgive Me,
For I have sinned,
Father Thank you,
Father I love you,
Father loves me,
Forgiven again,
Amen……….
FenniganT 7/23/10

A year to the day

Whoopie yeah?
No celebration,
No reason to party,
No walk in grief sand.
No retrospect on before.
Not like that.
Not sad.
Not happy.
Not glad.
Just me.
Just moved on.
Just like the year before.
And the one before that.
What never was?
Never is?
The way to be.
Just a simple.
Happy Anniversary.
FenniganT…………..7/22/10

own up

own up,
not down,
blow up,
all round,
go forth,
flow ease,
new gauge,
shared feast,
rock roll,
burn toll,
collect one,
to the son,
name the Father,
push higher,
roll longer,
get taller,
feel stronger,
no wonder,
no ponder,
light down,
big chain,
own up………
Fennigan T 7/21/10

No cents

When asked if I have change,
I tell the check out girl,
I have no cents.
It not a blog or a blurb or anything other,
Its something I learned deep down from another.
Self depreciation,
Self decapitation,
Self sabotage.
What a mirage,
What an illusion,
Mans self confusion,
Of what’s real,
Of what’s meant to be.
I’ve found love the only answer,
Love for everyone including me,
Love through your eyes,
Love thy neighbor,
Love thy self,
Show it in your labor.
Serve one another,
Do something,
Don’t let it just be,
Feed the homeless,
Set our children free.
Educate them,
Stimulate them,
Share their words with me.
Smile in the light,
Dance out right,
In the sight of the Fathers love for we,
Who have no sense?
FenniganT 7/20/10

Circle In

Listen close,
Circle in,
I,ll introduce,
Two men.
One on watch looking shoulder over,
One dreams in soft fields of clover.
Their struck in balance,
In a body they share.
Paid years in due,
Working out what was fair.
Struggled once now no more,
Didn’t know why or what for,
That one controlled the other.
One only a fighter.
One only a lover.
A blending began,
When God forgave their sin.
Different but the same.
More like brothers.
Holding each other up.
To stand tall,
To grow,
In their body frame.
Learning to find,
The changing the mind,
Of.
Two men,
One Fenn,
The other Fennigan.
FenniganT 7/19/10

FEAR

To rise,
Not above,
From where I from,
I wonder,
Under my breath,
Who can I tell?
Who will care?
How it hurts,
How it pulls,
How in turns,
Me inside out,
Tears fall,
My baby cries,
In my eye,
I know I saw,
I crawl,
To my knees,
Father please,
I fear,
What I see,
In the reflection,
Of me………
Fennigan T 7/18/10

EMPIRE

Brick by brick,
Wall by wall,
I build it for,
One and all.

Most think me nuts,
A little out of my head,
Others see a dreamer,
Who should go back to bed.

Then there’s those,
With no faith at all,
Who said get a job,
Don’t dream!
You might fall!

Then came one,
I didn’t think I would need,
That one does believe,
In the vision of me.

Standing straight up,
On the top of my world,
Spinning out power,
Focused and in control.

Building and empire brick by brick,
I'm creating something here,
I’m going to make it stick.
I’m working two candles.
Burning bright on the end,
I found a gold mind,
In believing in,
Fennigan
FenniganT 7/18/10