Emotional Hybrid

Emotional Hybrid,
Be an only child or siblings other,
Human balance in holding,
One for three or one for the other.
Tides of bonds in expectation,
In valley’s of eternal relation,
The emotional hybrid.
Dances the human race,
Moment to moment,
Face to face,
One won’t and one will.
But neither does the other.
Counting again,
How much one,
Owes the other.
Dance of emotional wealth,
Twist in hind sight eye,
Some masters in stealth,
One roped in wild.
The other plays the hand delt.
FenniganT 2/22/10

Good Bye Face Book

GOOD BYE FACE BOOK
I opened my fb account a little over a year ago. It was a nifty little toy that quickly became addictive. Day after day, night after night, hour after hour I built my online personality. Each morning with coffee I checked face book. Throughout the day I logged in to see if there were any notifications. Many nights I spent looking for a useful quote that seemed worthy of my online persona to show as my status for the following day. After almost a year I scoured thoroughly my site. I slowly realized I had been discovering myself through this cyber media medium. It was an epiphany type moment where I went well duh! Fennigan became the online person I created and the online personality that I created was the actual Fennigan that I am.
This mirror of me I used to reflect to the cyber space mirrors of other people created to reflect their online personality to me and many others. Now I will admit that there is such a dynamic in the friendship ring of face book that unless you look you will probably only see mirrors that look like you. But as with life if you push your comfort zone and look further as with the world there are more and more different people out there. I don’t pretend to know or even care how many face book users there are. But I can tell like the global societies we have on this planet. Pretty much everybody hangs with their own kind.
Yesterday I deactivated my face book account and started this blog. I found myself looking into the face book mirror to long and seeing that nothing was changing. So I am off on my own now. In the blogosphere as independent and as alone as one can be in this world of cyber type. Good luck to me and to all the mirror less souls out there…………
Good Bye face book
Good bye mirror
Good bye friends
Good bye notifications
With out you I still type
With out you I still think
With out you I am fine
With out you I am mine……….
FenniganT 2.22.10

Miss You

I will step out of the fire and float on the mist.
Into the eternity of every moment that has gone by
As I make my forever list
Broken glass shines brightest
Raged within a cage
A fire that would not melt desire
A moment on the stage
Labor for hire
There was blood on the floor
I wanted more
We tore at each other
Suspended in ease
Spent years clinging in grace
To each piece of life we could breathe
A simple wanting to save face
A simple beginning that wanted voice
So when the sun is right
When then moon is high
Lost upon the mindless in sight
Is when I miss you
Is when I find you in memory
Sliding down my spine
Like a shake that won’t fade
A moment that won’t go by
Penetrating my mind
The vision of you
Slender dark sultry and wet
Walking towards me as if we first met…………
FenniganT

WAVE

Life within a ration of waste
Shine to light out fade
Floating in a dead dimension
Of loss and bad intention
Dying 10,000 times a day
The wretchedness of them all
The weak and vain
Going to the mall
Stranded in the kiosk of hell
Baking in the oily smell
Of tanned money and diamond rings
White teeth and other shiny things
Skin is dry?
Put on so more…
Heart is cold?
Buy another ….
Soul is gone?
Repent and trade in...
So alone
Is there peace?
A place to be
Free of want and worry
Of this latent desire
To fill the soul cheaply
Artificially with no sweat
Of the brow to earn trust
Gaining respect endearing to faith
In the one you love and trust
Knowing that they will never betray you……
FenniganT & EPF 2.20.10

fenn

So you thought I was gonna
Bend the facts again
But nope I gonna come at ya
Straight from the corridor
The insane can’t hold me
The sane can’t feel me
So Im gonna tell ya
This is what its like to be me
The crazy fuckin Fenn
A mother fucker
That don’t like you
I don’t like anybody
I don’t even like me
I only love one
One that ain’t mine
But is me
The one I started with
The one I end with
So you thought I was gonna
Bend the facts again
Hell I don’t know where to begin
So I end
Where I started
To be who I am
The one and only
One full of sin
The one who you thought who wouldn’t win
But I will
I am
Fenn
FenniganT 11-25-09