Dreaming whilst waking

Woke up screaming,
With them in my head,
Wondering why,
I ever went to bed,
So I never start,
Till I’ve been drinking,
Wondering why,
It’s all in my head,
A make up of fantasy,
A haltered reality,
Once the insanities,
Crawl in my bed,
No dreaming of tomorrows,
Only remember the sorrows,
Of past calamities,
Playing loop over,
In my head,
Dreaming whilst waking,
I stay awake instead,
I stay alive,
I stay afraid,
I say I died,
Where I laid,
Dreaming whilst waking,
With them in my head………..
FenniganT 9.9.10