Dying While Living

I have been dying while living so long,
Now I don’t know which I am.
The moment when I feel good,
Living while I am dying.

Living that moment when I am dying,
But I lie here awake.
Dreaming that I’m crying,
I try but can’t fake.

Living while I am dying,
Not being here
Not being there
Nowhere do I belong.

Searching for that place,
That I used to belong.
Looking for what I lost,
Where did I go wrong?


I must have given it all away,
That part of me that cared
The me that loved yesterday
And looked forward to today.

Something’s missing
Something’s gone
Dreaming that I’m dying.
Crying when I awake..

Fennigan 10-29-09