My Question

Days of past are no interest to me
The future I do not ponder
In today only I see
Its miracles of wonder
Within an eye blink
Losing my grasp
Why to think
Of future and past

Today is the only answer
To my question I can find
Looking for a cure
Second glance blows my mind
I can do nothing yesterday
Not even tomorrow
These thoughts they weigh
Heavy with sorrow
No hope of change to come
Is it today, yesterday?
Or maybe even tomorrow….
Fennigant 1999

Hoops

If a trainer trains
And a performer performs.
When we watch
Are we training ourselves to perform?
In our vision,
Do we become trainers,
In our life,
Are we performing for those in training
In our death,
Performing for those who trained us?
FenniganT 1999

911

When a call not in need
Of advice or things that must be
Wish to hear a voice
Someone you believe

To know they are safe and sound
Or hear a voice from the longest
And when down
A voice was strongest

Now I listen
Learning and doing are two other things
Maybe I just wish to listen
The next time the phone rings.
FenniganT 99

Enter

Ah sweetness found,
In the arms of woman,
Hair, skin, legs wrap around,
Inside your heart a web woven,
Her eyes slowly melt,
The ice holding you from,
All you ever felt,
All you have become,
Hands of soft silk skin,
Stretched across bone,
So fragile and thin,
Perfectly fit your own.
As she holds you inside,
Down deep in her place,
How far the ride,
Willing to face,
Careful once your there,
Door closing behind,
Not so far,
Troubles you will find………..
FenniganT 5/14/98

What are you thinking?
Why do you ask?
Are you too sinking?
Not up for the task?
Can you hang with me?
On a mind fuck bend?
A trip to the eyes of see,
Slow crisp burning wind.
Long walk on the road,
Far distant in travel,
Carrying someone else’s load,
As mysteries unravel,
Simple lives are lead,
Daily things go on,
Tend to dread,
Feeling you don’t belong,
Everyone’s someone they are not,
Or at least trying to be,
Now I think I forgot,
If this is the real me.
Lost in false zone,
Wear honesty’s shadow,
Learn in voice tone,
Between truth and tattle.
FenniganT "96"

Whispers

Girl I see your love,
It whispers my name,
Calling from above,
Both still the same.
If it’s why how and when,
Or where, who, in which way,
I can’t tell truth from sin,
Don’t know what to say.
My heart calls day in and out,
Crying begging for you,
I’ve forgotten about,
Maybe you feel this too.
Embarrassed at the stop look sign,
Looking clearly in my mind,
Of days I scream and whine,
To see what emotion I can find.
Then overboard I call,
To put back the pieces,
At the end of it all,
The tension just increases.
What to learn from this?
Where’s the answer?
To harmony and bliss………
FenniganT “96”

Faces and Names

Tonight I write,
Devoted to my pain,
A well so deep,
A hall so long,
That I go is so,
This much insane,
That I fall,
For it every time,
In no mans land,
I’m left standing,
Crying alone,
Walking in the sand,
I can’t remember,
I can’t complain,
All the faces,
All the names,
Who aint around,
Who is gone,
I aint there,
I aint here!
FenniganT “96”

With Out Love

Careless reckless living in despair
Black, dark, relentless hole.
Struggling lost, cannot feel,
Living with out love

Darkened thoughts,
Sleepless nights.
Failure of mind body and soul,
Beauty lost on young and old
Living with out love.

Days uncounted, year unfold
Time is nothing to behold

Withering away
Life gone astray
Living with out love
Countless fears darken my world
None so terrible
No so cold
As living with out love………
Fennigant 1996

calling

I was talking with God
And his only son
Wondering around aloud
Of how much has been said
Of how little has been done
I was told to rise my self
In service
In name
In vision
In love
To open myself
To the love of forever
To still my self
Hard for impact
Of a crowd that won't fade
The harder they hit
The more he calls to me
To let go
Of this pain
All this shame
All this game
I see where to go
I know how to cry
I hear him call me
I here him calling my name………..

Never is Nothing

When is time?
Down the line,
Will it be?
Everyone will see,
Down deep inside,
All the same,
Somewhere to hide,
A new day,
Another name,
Escape the full moon,
Into a trip,
Of never ending doom,
Nameless the tap,
Addition to your room,
Down is up,
Out is always again,
Never is nothing,
Anymore!
FenniganT “94”