Whispers

Girl I see your love,
It whispers my name,
Calling from above,
Both still the same.
If it’s why how and when,
Or where, who, in which way,
I can’t tell truth from sin,
Don’t know what to say.
My heart calls day in and out,
Crying begging for you,
I’ve forgotten about,
Maybe you feel this too.
Embarrassed at the stop look sign,
Looking clearly in my mind,
Of days I scream and whine,
To see what emotion I can find.
Then overboard I call,
To put back the pieces,
At the end of it all,
The tension just increases.
What to learn from this?
Where’s the answer?
To harmony and bliss………
FenniganT “96”

Faces and Names

Tonight I write,
Devoted to my pain,
A well so deep,
A hall so long,
That I go is so,
This much insane,
That I fall,
For it every time,
In no mans land,
I’m left standing,
Crying alone,
Walking in the sand,
I can’t remember,
I can’t complain,
All the faces,
All the names,
Who aint around,
Who is gone,
I aint there,
I aint here!
FenniganT “96”

With Out Love

Careless reckless living in despair
Black, dark, relentless hole.
Struggling lost, cannot feel,
Living with out love

Darkened thoughts,
Sleepless nights.
Failure of mind body and soul,
Beauty lost on young and old
Living with out love.

Days uncounted, year unfold
Time is nothing to behold

Withering away
Life gone astray
Living with out love
Countless fears darken my world
None so terrible
No so cold
As living with out love………
Fennigant 1996

calling

I was talking with God
And his only son
Wondering around aloud
Of how much has been said
Of how little has been done
I was told to rise my self
In service
In name
In vision
In love
To open myself
To the love of forever
To still my self
Hard for impact
Of a crowd that won't fade
The harder they hit
The more he calls to me
To let go
Of this pain
All this shame
All this game
I see where to go
I know how to cry
I hear him call me
I here him calling my name………..

Never is Nothing

When is time?
Down the line,
Will it be?
Everyone will see,
Down deep inside,
All the same,
Somewhere to hide,
A new day,
Another name,
Escape the full moon,
Into a trip,
Of never ending doom,
Nameless the tap,
Addition to your room,
Down is up,
Out is always again,
Never is nothing,
Anymore!
FenniganT “94”

Gental Stare

A gentle stare,
Eyes of blue,
Jet black hair,
Is she for you?

Smile so sweet,
Innocence all over,
Body petite,
Soft as clover.

Dressed so real,
Has no shame,
Would surely kill,
If you play her game.

Step inside,
Feel her glide,
All you know,
Out the window.

Break your heart,
Steal your soul,
You’re so smart,
You don’t even know.
Fennigan T 11/1/93

Lost

At this time,
I should feel,
Drunk as wine,
With a sexy appeal,
Celebration it seems,
To be called for,
Only pain screams,
From my open sore,
To feel heroic,
In such loneliness,
To exploit it,
Into forgiveness,
A hard one,
To figure out,
All alone,
Full of doubt,
All may,
Come to bitter end,
Still today,
I saved a friend………
FenniganT “93”

KEY

Going straight forward,
On a purple Friday,
Feeling the soar,
See a better day.

A time to come,
With hard work done,
A sure as the rising sun,
Shadows no longer lurk.

Dwell in no past,
Of mind, body and soul,
Greet love at last,
Clean fresh and whole.

Learned well,
The valleys of my life,
I could not foretell,
That depth in strife.

All the worst behind,
Best days ahead,
Now I look to find,
The key to unlock my head.

FenniganT “93”

Calm Attacked

Reflections a mere walk
Through sides of memory
Escape the daily conscience
Of what’s soon to be

History has a reputation
Sailing the mass of time
Can you feel my frustration?
The wonders of my mind

Cautious building blocks of pain
Pour the foundation
My tears flow like rain
To solidify the situation

Tears down the walls
So long to build
All along insanity calls
Begging me not to feel

Lead my path to freedom
Walk me through the sand
Show this fabulous kingdom
Take me by the hand

Following your presence
All safe and secure
Fighting the resistance
Is this the right way
Are you sure?
Where are we?
What goes here?
Strange things I see
With feelings of fear
Its that quick
Rushing so hard
I’m feeling sick
Caught off guard

Follow me now I’m going
To a deep place I hide
Blind and not knowing
At which depth I do collide
This thing is kicking my ass
Feeding on my fear
Not much longer to last I’m afraid my dear

To the well of sorrow
Regret peace and pain
Now totally insane
Demons of hell demons of my own
I can not fight them
I should have know
Not by myself
Not alone!
FenniganT 93

ME

ME
Perched upon my soul
A wise man with heart of stone
On his side a child so free
In the middle is me

Wise man of pain
He deals it well
Child of love
Gift from above

Days of freedom
Nights of hell
I cannot choose
I cannot tell
I am the referee
Hiding both the best I can
The child I protect
The wise man protects me
FenniganT 1993