Pledge of the unarmed soul

Pledge of the unarmed soul 

I will understand that sometimes my past may haunt me but I refuse to let it dictate my future.

I will nourish my soul with love.

I will embody character through truth of integrity as well as the beauty, of arts, music, the earth’s landscape, space, eloping myself through these mediums with the inner me to the inner you.

I will respect the thoughts of the humans that I share earth with but they do not represent mine.

I will know I am one but never alone.

I will be connected to each human I meet. But the only thing I can really do for another  is be an example. Good or bad.

I will delve into forgiveness of self and self love.

I will bow my conscious in respecting all creatures living dead past present and future that nourish my soul.

I will decide with understanding, we are one conscious, one being in that of the alpha and omega. My decisions may effect all around me as do others decisions effect me. 

I will respect the opinion, religions, ideology and dreams of my brothers and sisters. Their dream is their dream as my soul is mine and theirs is theirs.  Live and let live.

I will hold no grudge upon myself or others.

I will make amends when I have wronged another and admit that I am wrong.

I will trust only god whatever that means to me.  I will have faith and confidence in humans. Trust a perfect word humans are not. I would be ridiculous for me to expect them to be.

I will understand all life has meaning and worth if only to keep the balance between the past present and future. One can never conceive in just one moment the total effect on continuum. 

I will nourish my soul through study of earth-kind, showing kindness and compassion to animals and children, respect to the old and empathy for all of mother earths inhabitants.

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Sheep

Water drops
Skies fall
Destiny knocks
Over all

Racing higher
Falling faster
Live buyer
Material laughter

Dawn on
Bell rings
Bulb blown
Glass strings

House bought
Trophy mate
Life saw
Bade fate

March you
Step one
Then two
March on

Like the rest will do...............

FTBAS 4.24.15

Bird song

Traveled disaster
Obeyed master
Feeling along
Canary song
Trapped paradise
Clipped sacrifice
Talking to Fenn
Rhyming within
Dancing key
Music blend
Free rhythm
Perfect rhyme
No thinking
Half the time
All with wings
All with wings...............
FTBAS 4.15.15

HAPPENING NOW!

What’s NOW?

It’s everything, from the beginning to the end, the Alpha to the Omega, the never ending always, starting crest of depth, to each we owe nothing. The NOW I own. Right NOW it is passing as you are reading this. It passed me long ago as I write this here and NOW. So what if it’s misspelled? So what if it does not ring to some truth.  We are here for NOW and those are only ways to go back and check it to a reference of when or will be.  Excuses given keeping us out of the NOW. Give me NOW, not tomorrow, nor the day before yesterday. In NOW I can change my mind and change my future NOW. The past allows no such leisure and my future can only be determined by my NOW.  So hear me clear at this end, as I show you how I turned NOW, backwards into WON!

FTBAS 9=17=13

I wrote you a poem today

Wrote a poem for you today

Tore it up and threw it away

Wanted to fill it with what you are to me

Words have failed my soul’s memory

Oh peace and perseverance

Darkness and deliverance

Sunrises and sunsets

Scars and regrets

Silver clouds filled with gold dust

Wrote a poem for you today

Tore it up and threw it away

If God can’t be tamed

You should not be framed

Oh peace and perseverance

Silver clouds filled with gold dust

Sunrises and sunsets

Darkness and deliverance

Scars and regrets

All something we can use

I wrote a poem for you today

I tore it up and threw it away……………..

FTBAS 2.17.15

Stray

Down beat down trodden

Given away under fingers of death

Burns of faint reckoning above those forgotten

Pass all that and let it go

Stray dog loose putting on a show

All these letters are just piss on a vine

Numbers never do justice to the sublime

Fixations and relations shaking foundations

Salt in the dish of regulation

Show high, sly low, window fly, Sky glows

Across the middle where the grass grows

Who are you? What am I?

Never said that did I?

Yes all the time

Stray dog loose pissing on the vine………….

FTBAS 2.17.15

Comfort Zone

In between the lines
A place to find
Temporary we linger
Finding neither

Succumbed to it then
Walked into oblivion
Edged out the truth
Forged a mental root

Place don't mind
Time laced design
Dream the horizon
Dark night blinding

Ignorance maybe bliss
Remembrance of this
All the unknown
Out of the zone...........

FTBAS 1.28.15

Boil

Sometimes I boil from the pain
Short lives of dirt and misery
Dark days and nights of lonely
Cold wet sufferings all they know
Lights blink out dying alone
No love No warmth
No understanding of family
No arms to hold them
No eyes cry their passing
No one to bury the body
Or even to place a stone
Insignificant in eyes trained to look away
No counting on anyone anyway
Many are born to this today
Many will die tonight this way
My heart broken so long ago
Within this misery I begin to boil..........
Fenn 1.2.15

Happy Birthday Jesus

Peace and holy
Insides knowing
Outside showing
Honor glowing
Equal transparency
Kings and queens
Pauper and slave
Daughter and father
Birth to grave
All the same
No better than the other
My curb to yours
No room for curse
Love all abound
On our round
Spaceship earth
Death and birth
Hungry at first
Filled are some
Those who come
That heard him speak
Of power from the weak
Some said he was wrong
Cause who would have us
Who is to really trust
In prophets and seer's
Relying on our fears
None but Jesus
Who
Lived all three
In
Our hope
In
Our spirit
In
Our divinity
Died on Calvary
To set us free..........
FTBAS 12.23.14

Deadly

There it comes
Spoiling all the funs
Tall and loud
Witty and proud
Yapping and screaming
Got my ears a bleeding
Such a queen
A bitch really
Ain't you seen
That Philly
From to North
To South
Shes always
Spewing in someones mouth
So sick and faking
Rumor replicating
Reputation deterioration
Character with out the making
And always faking
Cause real
Is a siren shrill
Like glass
It bust that ass
Truth does endure
I am sure
But dramas always working
Like Miley twerkin
And us watching
On a set
On next
Starving children with out their mamma
Cause she out talking with Drama............
FTBAS 12.21.14

Empty rainbows

Empty Rainbows


In the dark it lies
Somewhere in overcast skies
Believing in the human condition
Creating my empathy fruition

Well I'm done frustrating
Gonna start fixating
On loving every living thing
And the joy I can bring

Framed in empty rainbows
Opened all my windows
Out our time fly's
Soon we all dies

Pardons are just a sheet
Devils got to compete
I'm just a garden
Something to warden

For Jesus to weep
When Gods asleep
Slumped on the wheel
Oh my soul is real

Bent over and undone
When I try to be someone
Not meant to be
Other than me.............
FTBAS 12.16.14

Vaminos

I said this to you

What you put me through

I dig my silence

Ain't worried since

My satisfaction

Is domino

Fall down

Get back up

Push me

Fuck

Falls are creeks at the end

I am cheeks

Soulshine friend

So you said somebody

Did you there

Now that ain’t right

I'll declare

You miss leading for sure

But Hey I m gonna be the only one you see

The one that’s gotta be

Your satisfaction don’t you know

Vaminos -vaminos………………….

FTBAS 12.8.14 

Journeys

When the silence of my heart starts beating

Plows in the soil of my soul retreating

I follow a measure in my rhyme

Doubting the empty sublime

Of treasure in darkness

Of paths walked alone

It’s within the emptiness

We find we are not alone……….

FTBAS   11.18.14

Downstream

Spirals and waves
Rocks and rays
Leaves and branches
Night romances
Day delights
Split unites
Without the blind
I could not see
With out my anger
I am not free
Doubt and tragedy
Hand with misery
Cards are not just dealt
They are hand felt
Built with tiny cracks
Shortcut across the tracks
To lean up that hill
Toting despair still
Dogs bark when afraid
Is a decision made
With the heart of mind
Chosen path all the time
Light dark purple blue
I get to be me
You get to be you
Just not sure
Who gets to choose.............
FTBAS 11.13.14

My old Friend

Watching my old friend this morning.

Over 5000 of these days together forming.

Sitting in the warm fall sun, soaking in the rays.

Hot rising or stormy weather days.

My keys jingling are an instant up.

Cause we might be loading up to go in the truck..

Every work day and weekend , keeping an eye on my shoes.

Me barefoot has him with the blues.

Cause boots are for working, so he's almost sure to go.

Tennis shoes are a maybe yes, and sandals maybe no.

Point man on the trail, as a good lead dog would.

Never once has left me, from being misunderstood.

Returning from times he can’t roll, he’s the first face I see.

From a hard day’s work or fishing in the sea.

When he’s not there I hear his bark.

Silence is deafening without his snoring in the dark.

Nights are not the same when I don’t call his name.

Been beside me when even when I was unsure.

With his heart of gold and love so pure.

My old best friend Wyatt the Wonder dog

Or WD 40 on short.

Blessing sent to me from God’s court.

To become such a part of me.

I see I am in good company.

Left with maybe a year or two if we are blessed.

Cause living and dying daily together, is what us old friends do best………………..

FTBAS 10.22.14

F and D

I ask not of my faith, to forgive our darkness.

Only to hold me, as I see it through till dawn. 

FTBAS  10.3.14

Candy toast

Savory and sweet

Tongues little treat

Like sunshine in rays

Distant in daze

Moments in haze

Keep looking back

Never keeping track

Of begs a pleading

A hearts a bleeding

Opera on the floor

Sanity out the door

Nights a ringing

Souls a flinging

Tossed and believing 

That one little thing

Somethings do change

An island of swim

End books whim

Characters done

What's become

To the hero then
Or looser has been

King on top

Pauper will mop

Over the world 

Flag unfurled

With the host

Over the boast

Glass raised my candy toast...................

FTBAS 9.11.14

Soulshine

Concrete perfection reached
In beginning was preached
Of lasting pain and loners
Dusty boots in empty corners

Memories of gritty days gone by
Talking shit and running dry
Whats that my friend?
Soul shined once again?

Mud fields at last
Haze dispersal fast
That gaze in burrow
Looking west tomorrow

Birds are humming
Trees are sunning
Shade heat away
For soul shine to play....................

FTBAS 9.21.14

In me

Mind a train of thinking
Heart beats of passion
Within my soul seeing all
On my feet I'm standing
Arms meant for hugging
Shoulders built for lugging
Hips love dancing
Fingertips for romancing
Eye stare blinking
Mouth forms worlds
Envy has them shrinking
Courage pushes me forth
Cowardice stuffed in worth
Silence fell on ears
Ducts roll out tears
Smiled at the lips
One I just bit
With teeth shining
Muscles a flexin
Blood is pumping
Sometime I'm dumping
Sleep is a whore
Showers are a bore
On water proof skin
Cold vs warm
Constant battle
Temperature gauges
All over the faces
Emotional system
Physical rhythm
Nervous system
Control monitors
Sleeping at the wheel
I'm me
Even still.............

FTBAS 9.4.14